I want to thank all those who have joined me here, I had a bunch of kind comments to moderate. Thanks for your support.
I’ve had my posts included in several blog carnivals. Most recently my post Payroll Advance: Hitting Rock Bottom was chosen as an Editor’s Choice in the 145th Carnival of Debt Reduction. I’m proud of that.
I set out, just over a week ago, to try and get my head straight. I was posting as much for my own edification as for something I wanted other people to read.
I’ve had a rather ugly weekend. I spent most of friday and all of the weekend in a funk. I didn’t want to write because I’m concerned that the blog has taken on a life of its own.
It seems that when I write about how bad things are, or how I got to where I’m at, I tap into something primal and the words just tumble out. But these aren’t the things I want to write about, at least not completely. I want to be taking positive steps and writing about what I’m doing to get out of my situation, but when I try the words just dry up.
It makes sense, I guess. My whole psyche is based around the behaviors that got me where I am. I don’t really know the guy who wants to make changes, and so the words are forced.
I’ve got a few more posts about “rock bottom” in my mind, but I want to get some more positive, constructive posts out of the way first.
As a side note, I suspect there’s something wrong with my feeds. I have three feeds at feedburner, one for all posts, one for health only and one for money only. But the “all posts” feed doesn’t seem to be working. I’m going to fix that shortly, and I’m considering going back to one feed. I think I need TWO blogs, not one combined one. I’ll figure it out shortly. This may mean that all five of you who subscribe to my feeds may have to move. Sorry about that.
June 24th, 2008 at 1:55 pm
It’s a little overwhelming at first. Don’t let that slow you down at all. People will read or they won’t. People will comment or they won’t. The most important thing to remember is that this is for YOU and not us. Make it work for you. Many will find value in your ramblings, even if they’re mostly negative now. As you grow, learn, and improve your situation, the tone of your posts will evolve with you. Don’t write what you don’t feel.
June 24th, 2008 at 5:58 pm
You should listen to Momma! Besides, there are plenty of happy-dappy, oh-so perky financial blogs out there. The blogworld could use a few more realistic (and yes, sometimes negative!) blogs like yours. The struggle to gain control of one’s finances is HARD. There will be negative times, thoughts, and the occasional desire to just throw in the towel and bring out the credit cards. But I, for one, will keep reading what you write about the struggle.
June 25th, 2008 at 1:41 pm
I agree. Keep writing. Do it for yourself. Momma has some good advice!